Welcome 2013

 

Happy New Year AND Happy 3 Year Anniversary to my hubby!  We have had a lot to celebrate lately!  We spent our New Year's Eve with dinner and a movie.  We were told by many to go to the movies (Parental Guidance-it's really cute!) before the baby comes because we won't do it for a while after her arrival.  It was a low key evening and the perfect way to celebrate.  We also pulled out our anniversary envelope where we write down what we did in the past year and what we hope for in the next.  I think one of the things on the top of both of our lists is to be "good parents."  :) Which leads me into my next story...

 

Last night we were sitting around and Matt said a few times, "Have you seen Beacon? (our cat)"  I kind of just ignored him, assuming Beacon must have been asleep on a chair somewhere.  Then, before we went off to bed Matt went outside to cover the grill and found Beacon on the patio chair outside!  He must have been there for a few hours--since dinner, we figured!  I felt so guilty!  What kind of pet owner am I?!  haha  I know its kind of funny and just another story to add to the many about our cat.  However, it started a small panic inside me. 

 

What happens if I am feeding or burping the baby wrong?  What if I swaddle her wrong, or she gets sick and I don't realize it soon enough?!  It really could go on FOREVER.  I became extremely aware last night of how miserable I could become if I allow worry and doubt to consume me everytime I have to make a mommy decision.  I am sure a lot of parents do live like that.  Worrying, obsessing, and trying to always be "super mom."  Well last night I gave up the idea of trying to be "super mom" before I even really had the chance to try.  Perfection is not going to happen and I am sure becoming a mom will be a very humbling experience (It kinda already is...I am reminded everytime I look down and see my puffy toes! haha).  I was reminded this morning, "to seek first his kingdom and righteousness (Matthew 6:33).  One of my resolutions for this year is to resist comparing myself to others and seek His kingdom FIRST.  I know that my heart will only be satisfied if I am obeying God's will for me, and that has nothing to do with what the world expects of me.  He is the boss and He will provide me with strength and wisdom I need for each day!

 

Happy New Year to you!  I hope you were able to take some time to be quiet and reflect as we enter 2013!